woah

yes, i did change my blog's skin. sexy, isn't it?

anyhow, down to business. this morning was the fourth period exam, and this exam was the only one that i wasn't exempt from/hadn't taken early. today was my last day as an enrolled student at Hunter Huss. graduation is in five days, roughly; then i will be done forever with high school.

i dunno whether to be nostalgic or overjoyed. at the moment, i'm a mix of both. as i strolled the halls of the school to say my final good-byes to beloved teachers, i was close to tears. i have had both good times and bad since ninth grade; overall, as i look back, i can say with confidence that in all they were four years well spent. i've grown a lot since entering Huss; in knowledge and in valuable life experience.

i just want to say, to everyone who has been a part of my life these past four years: thank you. thank your for the laughter, for the tears, for every moment that will linger in my memory. even if the names and faces fade, i will still remember what you have done. i won't start naming people, because i know i'll never be able to list everyone who has contributed in some way to my development since that August in 2005 when i first walked through Huss' front doors.

just open your eyes
just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful
will you swear on your life
that no one will cry at my funeral

that's a good way to sum up my current outlook on life. listen to the rest of the song to get the proper idea of the mood. perhaps it's a bit twisted, if you listen to the lyrics, but it's a kind of bitter optimism. i can't say i see the world as a place of rainbows and butterflies where everyone gets along, but the world is full of opportunities, and which ones you take dictate how it turns out. it can be good or bad, depending on your attitude when you start. if you're smiling, then life will be fairly good. if you wear a frown on the way in, then a dark cloud will follow you. so i am determined to plaster a big grin on my face and make the most of it as i segue into this new era of my life.

more when i finish making sense of what i'm feeling. at the moment, it's too vague to articulate.